DhAdHA

too tired

2006-11-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

waww its been awhile. a long while indeed since my last post.
anyway, life's changed. to the worse or better i have yet to know.
broken ups, downs, fallings, everything have been gone through for the last few months..
yesh it was hellish for me.
esp now when im all alone in singapore.
missing u badly, yes i have to admit that
my life with u was planned to be beautiful and i didnt know what happen and the true reasons.
iya, i am still hoping that it was just a nightmare that soon passed, but it came true.
u know wat
im still hopin that one day we shall meet again, when u are a much better person and i am too.
and u are already working and probably im learning, even when im in china, i would rather be with u.
ya gak tau kenapa, bagaimana and etc etc.
ya im really hoping . so...
i want u to work in singapore. i want u here by my side.
im hoping ur dad could change his mind
im hoping that day will come true
God plis help me fulfill this. yes we are meant to be. yeas we belong to each other. it was a shock a damn shock to me.
plis God put us back together when the time is right. bless his family and bless mine too.

mmmmmmmm

2005-10-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

am i here rite now to regret, while he doesnt
am i here to apologise for what i did, while he doesnt
am i here to turn back the time, while he cant
am i here to bring back my memory, while it wont
am i here to see him, looking at others?
am i here to stay or to go away?
let me know. i wanna know whats inside his mind

hAPPINESS

2005-08-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

Tell me.
Whats Happiness
A part of me says that it's like another joy. Another path of your life.
But, another side of me is asking. Am i happy?
If i say i want to share. im lying. i want it all for myself.
If i say i can bear it all by myself. im lying. i cant handle it.
If i say im a strong person. im not. im very much falling.
If you see me smiling. i didnt mean it. im faking it.
If i say our relationship is going somewhere. i dont know. im not sure.
If i say im okay. im not. im very much broken inside.
If for last few days i kept quite. i kept it all to myself. Some regrets are there.
help me outta here.

Bosennnnnnnnn

2005-08-17T15:56:00.000+08:00

im bored.
so bored.................
i just wanna go back to indo.......
i mish my family....... n my LCG n my tipi... that muchhhhh
im borec with what i face .my daily doings.
im bored with my relationship. nothing is exciting enuff. nothing specials.
im bored with my school. none interests me.
i just wanna hef more holidays.
more time with my loved ones.

balik indoo!

2005-06-26T00:19:00.000+08:00

hey bebiii, hehehe
long time no see.. *genit mode on huahuaa*
eh kmu aq tinggal lowh.. ciaaeellah gaya gak siyy bahasanyaah?
trus kamu di indo sanah2 belajar nyetirrr donkk... inga2 aq kan pengen poto2 piti2 auuwww...
kamu kaya gak tawuu ajah saya centil ajabileeh giniih..

blg sama papa "pa, aq kan mawu pacarann donk skali2, uda bagusss saya lakuuuu pa, drpd jadi lelaki janda tuaaa...hiihihiii" peace2
eh say, kmu di sg jangan lopa saya lowhh.. hihihi * maksudnya tak jauh2 laah dr oleh2*...ngerti kan kamyuu? hauheauae geleuh abisss ...

eh2, kmu sanah baca blog aq, jadi ngerti gtu lowhhh... maaph yah klo aq suka sok gengsii n juall mahalll...uda dr sononyahh tuwhh!!
dah noh kmu sering baca, jadii mengerti gtu lowh kenapa saya teh sukaa beteee ahh.. btw, kmu ngerti kan BeTe apaan? awkawkawkaw... !!!
dan JaBoTaBek jugaaa kan skrg?? aheuaehuae *eitts gak maksud ngehina lowh...cuman NGINGETIIINNN, takutt lupa kann...*

eh btw, saya pengen ganti blog skin saya lowh...puyenk ah bacanyahh,kecil2 gtuhh tapi saya malees gantinyaa hihihi...uda laa gak usah centill dheee..... eh say, maachiy lowh tadi poto2... igh cenenggg deh sayahh.. haeuhaeuae..
nangg ningg nungg saya mo pulangg niiiy.. gaya dheee auwww..
eh2 btw, tass saya bagussh kannn? indahh yahh... aduuh tas terindah dan termahal yg saya embattt eleh2.....
eh saya teh blon beberes buwat besok mo ke indo gimanandang ini tehh?
haiYa, cemepann leeeee?

Bt n bosen

2005-06-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

bosssen ahhhh...
hiks i feel so bored and so dumb these days
i just wanna go back indo and see my parents and another side of my life.
and i miss those days with andree.... not missing him, but particularly to the ways we do things together.
i miss those times when i can introduce him as my boyfriend
i miss those times when we can hold hands in the public
i miss those times when we go shopping together.........
i miss those times when we go out having our special day
i miss those times when i can spend my weekends with him
i miss those times when my parents and friends know about him
i miss those times he gets me suprises
i miss those times when we go out at 3 am and strolling on the street
i miss those times when he cherishes me, like no one did
i miss those times when we went to movies like money wasn't a problem
i miss those times when i can buy him stuffs and he gladly received it
i miss those times when i went into his room, i see my picture was framed beside his bed
i miss those times when we can have an album of our memories
i miss those times when we can relate some songs to our love life
i miss those times when he tried his best to get something that i want
i miss those times when he pampers me
i miss those times when i can depend on him
i miss those times we spent in jakarta, the malls, the movies, the food
i miss those times when he tried the impossibles and silly stuffs to pick me up
i miss those times when he calls me his yayank, in front of his friends and his family.
............and i wish i could do the same now...........................

uuuuw

2005-06-19T13:00:00.000+08:00

From me to you:

you are a ship that no iceberg can sink.
you are a painting that picasso cant draw.
you are a note that mozart cant write.
you are a puzzle that holmes cant solve.
you are a match that ali cant win.
you are an epic that tolkien cant write.
you are an evolution that darwin cant theorize.
you are a world that no explorer can map.
you are a star that no astronaut can reach.
you are a tune that michael cant dance to.
you are a rock that no waves can erode.
you are a movie that spielberg cant direct.
you are a prose that edgar cant recite.
you are a program that bill cant erase.
you are a rainbow that the sun cantoutshine.
you are a design that norman cant build.
you are a race that michael cant win.
you are an instrument that no musician can play.
you are a sun that no cloud can cover.
you are a character that stan cant create.
you are an object that father chronos can wither.
but...you are someone i CAN have.
gaya gak say nulisnya? geleuh nda? haeuheauheauae!

peace!

2005-06-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

hmm, today cecenya carles going for good... hmmm...
kinda felt guilty for going back so soon just then... but i also have yeyet's bday
and i feel much worsen if i didnt attend hers. Tho'
when i reached there, it was already finished!! huhuhuuh
anywei, im gladd hey!!
bcoz, im very much have an ease of mind of my relationship...
coz i know, FOR the moment, his parents do not mind
im not sure how the outcome is gonna be when they see me

sure things are going well for me
and im gonna be a GO soon
one other thing is that, my exams.
they are worrying me.
but i seem to be pretty relaxed, even watched Batman begins today
haeuheauheuea...
such a notty gerlll..

im scared tyg cant pass this services, or any other subjects. im worried for him
yet for me myself, im very relaxed....
ey, btw, yesterday i met uncle n auntie hehehe..we went for dinner
and tomorrow, they gonna come to my place and stay for a while till they go to the airport
i guess dede, um celli... (hey i always call her as dede too and ce fenny as cece...)
gonna miss her so much...
iyah siy, if my dede oso goes back to indo-well, im gonna leave her first siiyh! heauheuaea, ill be crying like hell kali yah
skrg ajah rasanya dah bosen banget lowh ga ada dia...
hey de, u make a great impact of my stay here!!
but i think, she is happily SHOPPINK in indo with atin!!! uugh, im so jealous!!

oceh, back to studyyy!!!

gaya

2005-06-16T22:10:00.000+08:00

if you are scared, dont you think i am too?
if you think you gonna fall, dont you think i'll be much worsen?
if u think we could never make it, i would never try it from the beginning
i probably made my mind too fast, too soon

if one day, we are not together again,
would you still care
would i still be there
would we still be friends
would i still have u by my side
would u still be with me when im down
would u? or would i?

why do still cry for u?
im dying to get close to u
why do i still feel the ghost of you
.............

i try to get u out of my mind,
but u return all the time
i believe i could let u go
like the fool i am.....
why...................
do i still cry for u?

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know i should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep coliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

hehehehe

2005-06-05T03:01:00.000+08:00

i may not be that perfect
may not be that nice either
may not be that pretty
may not be that gooodie
baby, it may not last as long as we want it to be
it may not happen as smooth as we think
and i may not be expressive enough for you,
but i may be better in words
im shy, im extrovert
im different, dont compare me with others
i can easily get irritated, but i hope u can always ease me down
i know, i may never been good enough
i know i may fail in the middle of our journey,
but i hope u will see me in different ways that no one else can do.
hoping that u could see right into my eyes and knowing what i want before i even say it
........i hope we can go till that extend
lemme be there for u when u are down
lemme be the one who strengthen ur weaknesses
lemme be the one who stands up for u
lemme be the one who knows where u place ur things!! *u always get them misplaced somewhere...*
lemme be the one whom u can protect of
lemme be the one u can depend on, i mean vice-versa
hehehehehe
uda ah..ngantuk byeeeeee

new day

2005-06-04T11:56:00.000+08:00

new day..
im hoping to have someone to stand by me
supporting and waiting eagerly to see me
wanting someone as my company to go shopping
giving his opinion and being patient
wanting someone to go with me on the weekend, strolling and walking trough
having my day with just the two of us
no, im not being jealous, im just afraid of the outcome....bad ones
yesh, im missing someone else out there, but too bad...
im getting a better one...
hoping someone to get to know me better
being there for me when i fall and stood up for my wrong doings
having someone mature to advise me of my failure
getting someone to clean up my messi-ness
getting to know someone better, not only his oneself, but the whole family and
environment
making sure that everything is clear, trustworthy and that's when the love comes
having to know the positive and negatives, but hey it may come to your own beneficial.
someone who can see something i could never see, the future, the other side of a happening, the bad outcome..

yesh, lots more..
making sure that, that someone over there is lucky to have me too!! so do i...
no, no self-egotism...no self-pride, indeed respect, love, care and truly-ness for each other.
i may not be that perfect, but im willing to try, to change
it's difficult but i want to be better in a way
need someone to control my temper, my ego, my self-pride.
you come into my life for a purpose, so do i...
what's yours and what's mine may be the opposition of the others, still they can match
i don't want you to leave, cause i know.. i will regret
i don't want to regret, so don't leave
work it out if you think you gonna have the blessings to be together
fight for what you want and achieve it...
don't let it fall under you.
i love you, now i say it cause, i've made up my mind...
thanks for waiting, being patient, understanding, helpful.
hope we can work it out towards the end, during this relationship, i'm hoping for the better, not the worse nor worst!

bt

2005-05-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

mengapa saya bt......................
want to knoeww adjahh
huhuuhuhu bt sekaleee my assgment numpuks...
i wish sometimes, i didnt take this path of my life...
i wish.....sometimes, i could change my past
i wish sometimes, i could get things done my way!
i wish, i could be together with my parents
i miss them
how i wish, i could meet atin n wei again n be with them......
i wish... i were a child again
i wish.... my past were better
i wish.... yah pokona mah so many i wish laennya dhe...
i wish i can go to spore
i wish i can go back to indo n see my new house
i wish........... i wishhhhhh..........
so what is your wish for today?
but whenever i think about it, i should be greatful for what i am, what i have, what i did and whatever that has happened in my life.

so longggg

2005-05-01T00:38:00.000+08:00

I will never find another lover

sweeter than you, sweeter than you

I will never find another lover

more precious than you, more precious than you

Girl You are Close to me you're like my mother,

Close to me you're like my father,

Close to me you're like my sister,

Close to me you're like my brother

You are the only one my everything

and for you this song I sing

All my life I pray for someone like you

I thank God that I,

that I finally found you

All my life I pray for someone like you

I hope that you feel the same way too

Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,

You're all I'm thinking of,

I praise the Lord above,

For sending me your love,

I cherish every hug,

I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby,

I've prayed for someone like you,

And I thank God that I,

that I finally found you,

baby All my life I've prayed for someone like you

And I hope that you feel the same way too

Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You're all that I ever known,

when you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.

You turned my life around,

you picked me up when I was down,

You're all that I ever known,

when you smile on your face

all I see is a glow,

You picked me up when

I was down You're all that I ever known,

when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,

You picked me up

when I was down and

I hope that you feel the same way too,

Yes I pray that you do love me too All my life,

I've prayed for someone like you,

And I thank God that I,

that I finally found you

All my life I've prayed for someone like you

Yes, I pray that you do love me too

All my life I've prayed for someone like you

And I thank God that I, that I finally found you

All my life I've prayed for someone like you

Yes, I pray that you do love me too

well hey how many days, or months have

it been since i wrote my last post....

lemme recall, those were the days when i

was broken hearted ey...

with monyong...

but now, im 19 lowhhh...

im bigger,

older, so i should be wiser,

smarter, more concious,

less petty, less cranky

so this year, im hoping something

can you guess what it is...

i guess, as yew get older,

yew know ..........

yew know what u want riteeeee

anyway, im pretty busy this month, the upcoming may

hell yeah, im gonna be much more cranky than i used to be

also, im considering some stuffs rite now

.........

will it work? i dont know...

oh yea, been receiving bags lately...

n patiently waiting for my zoom zoom zomm...

ooOO zooomm zooommmm

hgeheehhe wo te DhaQu

plsss come faster....

mommy cannot tahan oredy with the Cittt--Ciitt carrrr

hehehehehe

Cobalah untuk setia

2005-03-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

apalah mau mu kasih

kau pilih diriku di dalam hidupmu

nyatanya ku lihat kini

tak bisa kau coba untuk setia

sudah cukuplah sudah

ku memberikan waktu

kau selalu tak bisa

mencoba untuk setia

korus:

yang selalu ku inginkan

yang selalu ku nantikan

kau coba tuk mengerti

apalah arti mencinta

dan harus kau sadari

bila ingin bersamaku

jangan coba kau ingkari

cobalah untuk setia

-- ulang rangkap pertama --

bridge:

masihkah aku diinginkan

masihkah aku didambakan

masih ada waktu untukku

bersamamu akan ku jalani hidup

hohoohohohooh

2005-02-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

uda mo muleii skolaaa lagiiee..
haiyahhhh
so fasttt aaaaa
hauhaeuheauhe
bentar lg mo pindahan
bawu petama kali lowh pindahan niyh
hauheuhaueea
(kampungans)
huaehuaehae
at least gak sah tutup garasi pake tangan lg
haeuheauea
trus gak sah bangun pagi2 skola lg
huaehueahuea
ugh jadi ga ya dibelii mazda 3
huhu pengen sp 23
amen
uhauehueahea
ahhh
startin a new life again
a new semester
a new beginnin
a new chapter of my life
huaehueahe
gaya bgt siy guwee
pokonyaaa
no more wwcs dhee this upcomin new chapter mah yah
nyere hhatee teyus mah gaswat
hayo nteui tiasa sunda mah nteui isa baca siah.. kaowkoawkoawkoaw..
tul gak pembaca? lieur nteu?
kayanya this year is gonna be a tough one
unitsnya smuanya kacaw2 niyh
haiyaaa
huaehuaehea
hayang belajar hokkien jadina yak..
aaaaaaa jadi parnooo niy
ama accord itemm..
'kalo nuz mah accord abu yeee...
huaehueahuae

kangen

2005-02-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

eh anuzzz saya kangen ama kamuuuhhh

huhuh

sepina di rmh tanpa dirimuwww..

hehehehe

pgn ketemu abang jggg..

pengen guling2an wkakwakwakkaw ^^v peace a-town... tedeett teddetttt hehehehe

trus jg pengen ketmu dd, cunk2 jggg, trus jg pengne ketemu depooyyy, hehehe ketemu atinnn huhuh yg gak jadi ke melbbb centil ah.. trus pengen maen ma jeje, dewi2, anak2 ftp..

ketemu andree jg gpp

tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii most of all, pengen ketemu piqqqueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yg jauh disana n andrewwwwwwwww hehehhee.. igh udah serebu tawun rasanya dheee... hehee queeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee saya pengne ke amrikkkkkkk, beliin tiket yea...

huaehuaehuaee

hehe liburan2, panasnya stenga matiee dheee

half of my liburan ditemenin nuz2 n abang n otoy kdg

hehe kangen andyyy jgg, kangen lawrraaa jggg

ehhehehe

ahhh indahnya abis pulang jalan2 dr subiii

bagus2 dhe bajunaa n barang2nyahh

trus buahnya slurrppieee

hehehhe

tapi gak bawa duitt hahahha

dunk2 dheee

ah pokonyaaa pengn ketemu my piqueeeee

DAN

2005-02-09T01:38:00.000+08:00

Dan...

Bila esok datang kembali

Seperti sedia kala dimana kau bisa bercanda

Dan...Perlahan kaupun, lupakan aku

Mimpi burukmu

Dimana t'lah kutancapkan duri tajam

Kaupun menangis, menangis sedih

Maafkan aku...

Dan...Bukan maksudku,

bukan inginku

Melukaimu sadarkah kau di sini 'kupun terluka

Melupakanmu, menepikanmu

Maafkan aku

Lupakanlah/caci maki saja diriku

Bila itu bisa membuatmu kembali bersinar

Dan berpijar seperti dulu kala

cape guwe...

huhuhuuuhuh

thought i was over yew

then i was wrong

AGAIN

doooohhhhhhhhhhhhh

trus

never thought

yew can get over me

that fast

that soon

dasar dunk2

anged2 tai ayammmmmmm

loeeeee yeeeeeee

sebelllllllll

klo emank tawu ky gttttttt

jgn kaya gini dari pertamaaaaaaa

ughhhhhh

memakan korban sahajaaa

huhuuh

even till now

guwe jg gak tawu

mawu guwe apa

yg guwe tawu

guwe masi sebel

masi kesel

tp kog kangen jg

sayang jg

bt jg

sebel jg

males ketemu jg

males ngmg jg

tp pgn ngmg thousand words

pgn sama2 lg ky dolo

pgn maen2 lg

pgn hef fun together lg

pengen do lotsa of things

before...

goin...

to...

melb.....

SEBELLLLLLLLLLLLLL

2005-02-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

SEBELLLLLLLLL GUA AMA SI MONYONGGGGGGGGGG
SEBELLLLLLL AMA UDANNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGG
SEBELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL AMA SI AYAMMMMMMMMMMMMM
DASAR SAPII LOE ORG
GUA BTTTTTTTT
TRUS GUA MAKAN LAUKNYA APA????????????
MATI MANNNNNNNNNNNNN
EH DASR MONYONG YA LOE YA
ANGET2 TAI AYAMM LOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
MAMPOS AJA TU USBBB HWAUWHUHUAWHUAWUHUWUAUAW
AH SUTRA LAH.. CPEK EUY
HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHHEH LIAT AJAHH YA ENTARRR YAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SMUANYA BISAAAAAAAAAAAA DIATUURRRR KITAA MAH YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HWUAHWUAHUWAHW
SIPPPPPP DAH POKONYAHHHHHHHHHH YEEEEEEEEEEEE

jleb

2005-01-30T13:45:00.000+08:00

owh..

tnyata begitu..

if this is a game,

yew juz played it well

if this is a drama,

you are the best actor

if this is a story,

this is the saddest one

well...

if "HONOURED"

the only word

yew could say

what

else

can

curtin OOo

2005-01-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

haiya gara2 MR tiap ari ke curtin iniy.. minggu ini lama2 dakuwh gelar tiker dah di curtin.. hiihihi
ari kemis dr siang ampe jem 12 trus jumat dr jem 12 sampe jem 12 jg trus sebtu kmrn dr jem 2an sampe jem 10an.. ari niy aduh gak tawu dah.. uda capeQ guwa..
gile MR asli kerjaanya banyak buangeths dhe.. aye sampe puyenkk..
trus mana gak ngerti lg ngomongin apaan haiyaa... atuh iniy uda mawu exammm.. huhuhuhuhuhu
adu saya teh kenapa jadi des****** gt yah.. gara2 seorang **** huhuhuhuhuhuhuuhuhuhu sebelll.. kog impactnya gede amath ya? btw tuh org kaga ada rasa kangen yah? hebat bener dah.. salute buangeth dhe,.. uuuuuuuuhhhhh babiiiii elo kemanaaaaaa ahhhh BT!!! huhuhuhuhu
BT ama MR bt ama elo.. bt ahhhh btttttt tega elo mahhhhh pas giliran guwe sukaaaa ditinggalllllllllllllllllllllllllll.......... sebellllllllll.......................
iiiiiiigh lelaki gak ada perasaan.. monyong.. cicak.. sapi... huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

lupain

2005-01-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

lupain aja???

tp susa.....

emank uda biasa aja....

tp gak pengen ky gini....

pgn ky dolo lg...

emank gak bisa ya...?

tp i think bkn gara2 bonyok2nya...

gara2nya dianya...

jg harus gmn?

il fil gt ya dia?

sebel...

bt ah...
ngantuk jg...

jadi gmn dunk...
bt niyyyyyyy...
aghhhh!!!!!!!!@@#$%^&*( pgn marahh

kesel... huhuhuhu kangennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
ama monyongggg yang doloooooooooooooooo...huhuhuhu sebelllllllll...
kangennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.....

since yew went away

2005-01-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

Ooh, oohDo you ever think about me?

Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?

In the middle of the night when you're awake,Are you calling out for me?

Do you ever reminisce?

I cant believe in nothing like thisI know its crazy

it's been six months, eight days, twelve hours

Since you went away

I miss you so much and I dont know what to say

I should be over you

I should know better but its just not the case

Its been six months, eight days, twelve hours

Since you went away

Do you ever ask about me?

Do your friends still tell you what to do?

Every time the phone rings,Do you wish it was me calling you?

Do you still feel the same?

Or has time put out the flame?

I miss you

Is everything okay?

its been six months, eight days, twelve hours

Since you went away

I miss you so much and I dont know what to say

I should be over you

I should know better but its just not the case

Its been six months, eight days, twelve hours

Since you went awayIts hard enough just passing the time

When I cant seem to get you off my mind

And where is the good in goodbye?

Tell me why, tell me why

its been six months, eight days, twelve hours

Since you went awayI miss you so much and

I dont know what to say

I should be over you

I should know better but its just not the case

Its been six months, eight days, twelve hours

Since you went away

-taken from jeje's blog...hwuhwuhwuw.. sory je, tp emank bagus laguna yah.. icip2 dhe jadina.. tp it's not six months, it hasnt been eight days, neither twelve hours..

it's only one month, twenty-three days, four hours... hehehe.. and im still missin yew....-

Bindun

2005-01-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

ng, kynya percuma dhe klo guwe doank seorang yang usaha...
males rasanya klo cowonya gak usahha..
skrg ajah gua gak ngerasa dia tuwh masi suka ama guwe..
guwe mala liat dia mala ganjen2 dah tuwh ama cewe laen... dOOOhh!!!
males bgt dah...
gua pikir2.. emank dia ngerasain apa yg gua rasa gt?
emank dia jg mikir2 ky gua gini sampe dlm gt..
kynya engga dhe..
kynya itu smua sepihak doank..
eh monyet, gua tuwh ya.. pgn dhe explanation from elo..
gua tuwh pgn tawu isi hati loe..
gua tuwh pgn curhat ama elo.. n gua pgn lu jg bisa ngmg smuanya yg loe rasain..
klo elo ada blog yah.. at least gua tawu gt pa yg loe rasa...
abis yg ky dolo, tiba2 nick loe yg "i've been a fool" ituwh, gua nanya2 sampe jungkir jg elo gak bkl crita kan.. gua tuwh bt... gua dkt ama elo, tp it's like gua know nothing tentang elo! n loe jg cant be bothered to explain dhe..
skrg ini.. yg gua tawu tuwh nothing..
skrg ini apa yg loe feel gua tuwh gak tawu toy..
gua jadi paranoid ndiri..
gua takut buanget..
takut, kesel, sebel.. smua jadi satu..
gua yg sekarang itu feeling bener2 kecil..
gua skrg klo kemana2 dgr nama loe gua takut
gua klo disuru pergi2 ktm elo, gua takut
gua klo pokonya somethhing to do with yew, gua takut..
n gua rasa elo gak ngerasa semua itu..
elo mah hepi2 ama dhee...iii sebel.. sensi dikit napa!!

gua skrg iniy tuwh pgn telpon elo..
pgn nanya semua pertanyaan yg gua ndiri kg ada jawabannyah..
tp gua takut.. gua takut itu bwat elo terteken..
gua takut soalnya, elo tuwh doesnt show ur feelin, jd gua pikir klo loe terteken gt.. elo jg gak bakal bilang..
elo bisa gak siy explain ke gua?
elo bisa gak siy crita2 ke gua..
ke anus ajah elo tuwh critanya gak jelas gt lowh!
bt ah, masa smuanya gua kudu nanya ke anus.. emank dia apaan2 terus2 jadi ky prantara gt..
kan ksian jg dhe.
udah ah... kasi explanation ke guwe........................ tp gimana caranya yah?
loe pasti kg mawu dah tlp, kg mawu sms, kg mawu msn, atuh gimana mawu tawu donk??
email? uda dhe.. caranya elo pikirin... elo explain ke gua la yah.. anggep aja compositionnya b comm oteh..
ngmg2, gua tehh bego jg yah.. orangnya aja blom tentu baca blog gua skrg2 iny... tp biarin lah.. ntar moga2 klo dia baca, dia bisa explain dhe..
abis ktnya dia sering baca blog guahh!! skalian aja dah tulis tuh smua yg gua mo omongin ke dia dah..
eh makanya yee.. klo dah baca, cepetan clarify ke guwe... uda capeee niyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

cape.....

2005-01-20T13:06:00.000+08:00

udah la..
maybe i shud end this game...
maybe i shud hav given up also... just like what u did
maybe we shud start all over again...
maybe this is the way we shud be...

but, deep inside...
i dunt want it to end like this
i want it to turn the way i want it to be..
i want things to turn up better...
coz i know, if you try n i try.. things wud be great!
coz no matter how hard i tried to remind maself to end it,
i still keep insistin to have it on n on..
coz no matter how hard i tried to forget,
the more i remember..
coz no matter ... pokonya no matter2 laennyah dheeee..
loe pikir ndiri ah..
otak uda ruwetttthh niyyy toy!!!!
hwuahuahuahuahua.. cape ah.. nulis jg rasae gak ada gunaa.. hwuhwuhu

eh

2005-01-19T19:57:00.000+08:00

eh jelek!!!!
since yew like to read my blog so much.. read this carefully k!!!!

n ok, im gonna gamble at this blog now... yew have a choice..
first, if yew still wanna fight fer me, aft yew read this.... SMS MEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kareana guwe tawu loe kaga mungkin tlp dhe!!! mawu tu sms isinya kosong.. mawu tu sms isinya ky kentut kek.. pokonya sms guweeeeeeeeh
n second one... leave me alone... klo emank elo uda kg mawu fight for me.. ya udah,... i hv noting else to say k....
i just dunt wan things to end up this way...

!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

eh COWO JELEK!!!
baca iniy baek2 yah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! baca sampe mata loe belo.. sampe loe puas!!!!!!!!!!
eh jelek!! awas yah klo sampe gak baca!!!
eh elo tuwh yaa... makhluk apa siyh yg begitu begonyha gak bisa liat smua hints yg gua kasi yah???
eh gua kasi tau elo yah.. im choosing yew over that guy over there ok!!!
eh gue kasitau loe yah.. guwe dah keilangan elo tuh lama!!! loe pikir guwe kaga kangen apa???
elo pikir, cara yg loe pake skg tuwh jalan keluar yg terbaek apa???
emank km pikir...enak apa jadi aku??? orang aku ngerti apa yg km pikirin aja engga!!
elo ngmg ama guwe aja engga??
engga perna sms, gak perna tlp, gak nyapa, iiiihhh sok bgt siyh!!!!!!!!!!!
eh guwe kasitau yah.. elo pikir di indo guwe hepi??? somse bgt siyh maen ama temen molo.. tinggalin guwe molo... klo di cari gak perna ada???????? kmana aja loe??????
emank loe pikir enak jadi guwe selama iniy??? nyesek tau gak??? mawu tlp, gengsii!!!!!! mawu sms ugh sebel bgt... pokonya guwe males bgt laahhh... abis guwe takut!! takut ntar mala dikira centil etc etc.. huuhuhuhuhuhhu pedaall there are thousands of msgs in my Drafts yg isinya tuwh cm nanyain elo kabarnya... nanya elo ngapain, nanya elo kenapa???!! nanya elo mawunya apa skrg?? nanya elo udah given up on me emanknyah???
eh guwe kasitau yah.. guwe tuwh kangennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
buangetttt buanget ama elo!!!!!!!!!

eh klo elo tuwh emank suka guwe, sayang ama guwe.. fight for me!!!!!! bukannya dikasi ke org laen tawu gakk...
elo gak tawu kan berapa ember aer mata yg guwe nangis2 bwat elo???????
elo gak tau kan guwe jg sakit hati tawuu!!!!!
emank loe pikir pas loe sakit guwe kg peduli????? guwe mau peduli aja loe kynya acuh2 aja
guwe gak mawu ngeles2 ngebeg2 tlp2in elo terus... emank guwe apaan????
eh, guwe kasitawu yuah.. smuanya yg jelek dr elo... smuanya yg bagus dr elo... guwe mawu trima!! dr elo yg gak perna jawab pertanyaan guwe, dr elo yg suka bawel!!! dr elo yg suka ngambek, dr elo yg jelek!!! dr yg jrawatan, dr elo yg suka ngelak klo guwe tanya apa2, dr elo yg suka jawab LOPA!!! dr elo yg suka jawab BISAAA, dr elo yg suka ada bwat guwe disaat guwe susa, dr elo yg slalu nolong guwe klo gua ga bisa apa2, dr elo yg slalu jemput dd guwe, dr elo yg slalu nganter jemput guwe!!!!!!!!!!!!! pedaal tu rmh loe tu di ujung kulon sana... elo pikir guwe kg appreciate apa?????!! dr elo yg suka makan makanan sisa guwe. dr elo yg suka guwe gigit, dr elo yg bantuin guwe makan kue sus 3 biji, dr elo yg muji guwe waktu rambut guwe kriting, dr elo yg temenin guwe klo guwe sepi, dr elo yg mawu bantuin gardening tp kage perna jadi!! dr elo yg somse, dr sms2 elo, dr tlp2 elooo!!!! dr elo yg cuwekk!!! sampe elo yg perhatian stenga matie!!!!! dr elo yg pelithhhhhhh sampe paling boroshhh... dr elo yg suka dukung guwe klo apa2... dr elo yg gak tawu oroton tuwh ga ada di spoore!!! dr elo yg bener2 rewel makan, dr elo yg suka duck, dr elo yg rese!!! dr elo yg paling suka nawarin 3 dolo ke guwe... dr elo yg dekil, jorok, kg pake jel sampe elo yg ky engko2 glodok!!! dr elo yg suka sok keren sok cakep sampe org yg gak perna mandi skalipun.. dr elo yg suka gua pukul2 klo kesel, klo kalah maen kartu sampe elo yg nemenin guwe kemana2...
elo pikir smua memory ituwh elo bisa lupain dgn cepet? klo emank bagi loe gampang... bagi guwe itu smua enggak!!!!!!!!!!!!! bagi guwe, elo tuwh special... tawu gakk??
cape ah................ ngetik iniy dah ngeluarin kalori cukup buanyak bwat pressing the tuts, tereak2 dlm hati n nangis2 ky org goblohg dheee....

new

2005-01-11T22:07:00.000+08:00

so, all these while
i dont realise
that yew are the one im falling with?
why do we have to end up like this
cant things turn to be better?

all these while i took ur feelings for granted
perhaps it doesnt turn up the way i want it to be
always thought that u are not the one that i fell for!
always thought it was someone else!
so, all these while
was it you?
was it you the one that always makin me fall?
cant you even explain to me
why things turn this way?
cant you even fight for me?

cant we even be friends anymore?
broken, feeling so broken now

not even a single word
for all these while
all the time we spent together
so what is it for

Have u ever?

2004-11-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever been in love?
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything
To make them understand
Have you ever had someone
Steal your heart away
You'd give anything, oh
To make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart?
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever...?
Oh
Have you ever found the one
You dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything
To look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one
You've given your heart to
Only to find that one
Won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there?
And all you can do is wait
For the day when they will care
Have you ever loved sombody?
[So much]
So much
[Makes you cry]
Makes you wanna break down and cry
[Somethin' so bad]
So, so bad
[Sleep at night]
Have you ever tried to find the words but the don't
[Come out right]
Oh, have you ever?
Have you ever, ever, ever...?
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby?
What do I gotta say to get to your heart?
To make you understand
How I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cause baby I can't sleep
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you (have you...have you ever needed)ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever...?
Have you ever, ever, ever...?
Oh, have you ever...?

aarHHH..!!

2004-11-23T13:44:00.000+08:00

what's happening with me nowadays.. becoming so indecisive.. so greedy..so dumb!! and yet everybody seems to be so far from meh.. erik, halim..everyone is goin away.. huhuhu.. gonna miss them tho..

mm things are clearer somehow for the moment.. but im gonna miss few moments yah..

mm yesterday i watched LOVe ACtuALLy again..!! n cried at the moment where the best fren of the groom is in love with the bride.. kewl ey.. yea and the confession has been making me banjir for a few times.. it's really sweet n beautiful siy emank.. hehee.. mm yesterday, mm more like this morning.. parted with that person.. mmm really, something is missing somehow..

mm spending the last few hours with him has been okey.. n when he walked out the door.. aduhhh banjirr..

yah trus jg alot of things have been clearer up siy.. lha qta be2 jg bindung of alot of things la yah.. n how bout my fren there? ahh why u can never talk to me.. never ask me qns, dont just assume dhe makanya.. ntar tau2 sebel2 ndiri lagih.. dunnow whats happenin to u! haiz.. i know u are good, but not this way yah.. ttyl yah guys.. im really sleepie

-SePeraTeD-

2004-11-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

If love was a bird then we wouldn't have our wings
If love was the sky we'd be blue
If love was a choir, U and I could never sing
'cause love isn't for me and U
If love was an Oscar, U and I could never win
'cause we could never act out our parts
If love is the bible, then we are lost in sin
Because it's not in our hearts
(chorus)
So why don't you go your way,
and I'll go mine
Live ur life
And I'll live mine
Baby, u'll do well
And I'll be fine
'cause we're better off separated...
If love was a fire then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold
If love was a sport, we're not on the same team
U and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean, baby, we are just a stream
'cause love isn't for me and U
(chorus)
Girl, I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl U know I love U
I can't deny
Can't say we didn't try to make it work for U and I
I know it hurts so much
But it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road, we lost the trust
So I walk away, so U don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't U go
(chorus)
(out)
I'm sorry we didn't make it.

here it comes again..

2004-11-12T18:45:00.000+08:00

hey.. today is a bad bad day.. today i enrolled for my nx semester units.. then problems were occuring.. first.. me n toy were the first in the queue at 8.15 n peepz started comin in... but then, bcoz of my stoOpid mistake..by askin toy to sit when everyone else was standin up.. there was when the person-in-charge came up and asked the first 5 peepz to go in.. haiya.. i felt so dump dhe!!
then, again toy was able to get the queue number..n at about 9am, we were able to get in.. then we started enrollin the units that me, carles n anuz were supposed to take.....BUTTT!! a few of them are not listed in the first sem 2005...n some of them have the pre-requisite that i have yet to take.. huhuhuhu... okay..that was fine thouhh..
then we cudn't get the class listing on that day!! we have to wait for the appointment time to get them done.. yah scared of not gettin all my frens into the same tutor as mine..
continued by lookin at the timetable plannin in oasis.. there u go!! my classes got clashed for one to another.. okey.. then we ran back to get the things winthdrawn again.. n back to the timetable thingy, AGAIN, and found that the new class, which AGAIN clashed with the new unit that i have changed..
OK, there u go again.. we changed again.. n i tink the supervisor even pitied me n carles..that she settled everythin for us! yeay..thank GOD, really..
uugh.. not feelin very nice to ndy, otoy n evy for followin us to run back and forth to get all the things done.. n anuz is now taking summer yeay!! but... mmm yea, i HAVE to take MR 200 as the summer.. n fought with bambang for that!! huhhhh.. i have no other ****** choices mate.. if i had one, just a slightly better choice.. wudnt i be that dumb not to take it??
yea, was tired now.. n really hope to get my hair done tomorrow lahhh.. *peace yo*

Hepi Beday EpoY

2004-11-06T13:33:00.000+08:00

hey..last 2 days have been "big" ..hehe mmm i got to settle this prob with lim.. n yea, the agreement is not good but it's getting there la.. it needs alot of patience.. but i tink..i wanna try doin that.. i wanna see how things are goin to work out..if i were to do it..daripada gak dicoba ama skali ya gakk.. yah ternyata smuanya itu go through alot of consideration..alot of thinking jg yah..n i'm glad that he was thinkin the way i was..

yah, enuff of that day..yesterday was a FULL day for me.. pagi2 anter dd..trus bobok lagih n kelas jem11 sampe jem 1 cabut.. trus ditlp2in terus ama epoy (>.<) suru karaoke.. hehe.. trus yah rencana aq ama andy gagal total dhe..org tadinya mo ngerayain ari minggu koq.. lha skrg niy yah.. blom beli kado, beli kuenya.. etc etc..
yah uda gitu siangnya kan aku ke pantai scarborough ama anak2 IFc..
maen2 diangkat2 gitu ama den n ripai.. weleh rambutnya ancur, clana dalem pasir kabeh.. hhuhuuuu..
akhirnya pas balik ke rmh nyasar deuy plus ptoy uda nunggu lama di rmh..mati dhe.. yah uda..jd gak mandi...aduu jorokknyahh.. huik2..
trus ke ct beli kado, kue sgala macem yah.. trus akhirnya ke UtOpia, karaokean dhe.. hehe pertamanya malu2 gtu..lama2 geloooo!!!!! tereak2 smua..hehehe lucu.. nah akhirnya sampe jem 12an..gua, ptoy ama anuz uda mati kelaperan..huhuhu..lha aku kira teh di ultahnya dikacih mamam..lallalala.. dunk2 bgt yah.. coba tau kita gak dikasi makan uda makan dr siang kali yah.. huik.. nah akhirnya karena saking lapernya..aye n otoy minta pegi mamam aja dah..heheh.. akhirnya kita ber5 pegi makan.. gelo ngmgin ttg masakan di indo tu jorok buanget dhe.. asli ada tikus la dlm panci baso, trus masak pake sperm!! bayangin..!!! trus masak pake aer bekas manddiin mayat..trus ada bulu idung sapi!! trus bikin roti pake cincin yg ada bekas eenya!! muampuuuss DHEE!!.. huikkz..sampe keselek brp kali..trus akhirnya dah jem 1 plg trus toy mala ilang token..otoy2.. ckkcc.. yah gitu lah how i spent my day yesterday.. ehe trus plgnya mandi..trus uppps..mayu.. mblnya toy kena pasir smua??? mati dhe.. gara2 rambut gua yah..kaya ktombee!! hhuhuh.. pai seh2..

fLashin' BacK

2004-11-01T20:38:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. mm just watched hayley goin out from aus idol..n yea i saw the flash back..on her journey..where she just started..etc etc.. uughh gilaaa... klo gua ntar dikasi yah a flash back dr hidupku..ckkckc bisa nangiss darah.. it will start from the day my mom is expecting me..then the pain she suffered for enduring her pregnancy..then umm they day i was born..when i started crying..when my dad n my mom looked at me in joy..knowing that im healthy..trus mmm the day when i started talkin..utterin nonsense to be precise..hehe trus when i started walkin..kejeduk n jatoh..hehehe..^^ then when i went to kindergarten.. when i met all new frens n wasnt willing of lettin go of my mom..coz i was too scared..ehhehehe i wonder..how chubby i was then hihihihi..^^ trus when i went to my pri sch.. yea, slightly taller n umm bigger.. hahaha..
well..cant remember most of my pri sch memories.. then i started having my own group of frens in pri 4.. hehe quarrels n fights began then..hahaha then...when i was kinda umm 'forced' to go to spore.. huhuhu.. my parents were crying n my mom was too reluctant of lettin me away.. then i met my roommates there.. my 1998 LCG.. mmm..by then, i was losing bout.. 8 kilos?? heuheue dietnya baguss yakk??? too much stress i supposed.. well, after that i went to the languange centre.. n wasnt doin well at it..ehhehe then....ke FTP.. sec 1... well, meetin scarlet n frens.. hehe i wasnt that talkative then..*believe it or not dhe!!* n yea..kinda nerdy haahaha.. trus sec2, ktm susan, eren n stuffs.. n got to express streme..yeay..
mmm then comes the most memorable days of my life..the sec3s..n sec 4s.. mmm meeting lots n lots of frens.. started goin out n being...umm lil' naughty..hihihi.. started skippin classes..met dre there too.. met zee, ato, louise, siti, ika, eka..sung2..hehe..nastar.. huhuhu pingin nangissssssss.. trus sec4.. hehe ancur2nya gue.. dimana prelim gua kacao total gara2..si kambing dodol itu.. hehe yah eniwei..i was lucky..damn damn lucky of lettin him go..coz he is not that worthy afterall.. hehehe
then.. mmm the farewell with my 2001 LCG..wei, atin..risty.. yah..trus ketemu anus ya..hahaha trus tiap ari kerjanya maen time crisis..maen di E-ZonE.. trus poto2..huhu slama 2 bulan..ehhe trus ke perth.meetin tata..titin n reret..lin2 too.. umm the first year in perth wasnt that fantastic tho.. feelin too bored n no entertainment..frens, ya ada..but not that close i suppose...n was always at home alone..missing all my bau frens..heez
trus second year.. ada dd..n depoy..n close frens that can i can count on.. trus nangis2 gara2 gak bisa pelajaran..haha itu siy baru2 iniy siyyy..hihih hehe capeQ! hehe ey btw, gotta study for my CB!! huhu.. trus baru masak kanakung..mau gak kawann??

piyama baruu!

2004-10-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

yeay! dha dapet pijamas baru yooO.. hehe ^^ warna pink gambarnya kodok..tadinya pengen beli yg oren..gambar sapiiiehh..tp yg 8nya kotor euy..jadi beli si kodok ajah kembar ama dd! hehe cute pisan..ughh summer pls come so i can wear it...heuheuhe..

tadi teh gak masuk b comm..hehe trus ngerjain finance ama jeje.. yah.. trus pegih ke ct ama d, bambang, denny, aji..gelo pisan eta teh para lelaki..ckck.. dikerjain denny itu uda kaya lebi capeq dr dperkosa haha.. soalnya dia narik rem tangan sampe tinggiii pisan sampe itu nurunin uda kaga kuat..ckck denny2 blom perna dipenggal loe!!
nah tadi cari kadonya lin2..ntar ari minggu ada surprise party d rmhnya..trus tadi oik terakhir dgn tata in 2004..soalnya ntar pas dia baliek dr indo..qta2 dah pada balik ke indo..yummm 3 months full of holz.. he he he..

yha trus kmrn tu aloottttt lots of things goin truh my mind.. mmmm gua takut future gua.gua takut sama uncertanity..gua takut ntar apa yg gua expect doesnt happen..gua takut gua gak bisa cope with my future..gua takut of so many things..hehe yeap.. im feelin so small (bukan di size yeee) but inside..

yah every single thing that we do tuh has its own risk..walopun itu small things like..hmm driving..? we are taking the risk of being in an accident, kena speedcam, kejebak macet, being late..diklakson org..nubruk..etc etc..tp klo liat negativenya, gak ada beresnya..yahh liat sisi positipnya dhe..mau gak mau =)

hmm yah gak tau la..just dun wanna think too much about it.. kan uda dpt piyama baru...wakkaka *GaNya* gak nyambunggggggg...

kaum adam!

2004-10-27T11:51:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. sayah lg bt sekali ama yg namanya kaum adam.. gue, temen2 bae gue, dd..smuanya lg ancur ama yg namanya COWO!!!! huh..
feels like saying*WATEVER* to everybody..(koq gak nyambung siy??)
knp kita koq dikecewain terus ama cowo siy.. hmm koq dolo pas qta kecil koq gak dpt masalah kaya gini..everything goes on smoothly.. skrg koq too much obstacles..too much problems..too much uncertainity..
yah skrg temen bae gua yg uda bener2 i really want her to get over her trauma skrg mala kacau.. koq mala gak bisa jadian ama cowo yg uda dia suka.. yg uda pasti dia tunggu2 slama iniy... wei.. aduhh..wo ai ni...!!! wo really2 pity ni...huhuuhu pingin nangis rasanya..koq smuanya aneh!! completely aneh..
trus dd lagi..knp temen cowonya ANEH2!!!!!!!!!!!! dr yg tukang ngeduain, satu lg tukang bokep..horny abis..ngaco bgt dah tu cowo..lalu cowo yg sok kepekaan..pedaal nonsense isinya!trus ada satu lg cowo pedit yg aneh jg, everything he does koq kayanya aneh ae..haiz...pusing2..
trus my own problem..im scared of facing the answer..facing this future..oooh i hope i can settle this by today...haaizzz dont wanna tok bout this no more dhe.. hmm skrg qta org cm bisa depend on one waras fren...tin, dont leave us yah.. kita bener2 lg in deep trouble..n thank u for being there for me.. umm for us i mean.. aih2 knp all these things have to happen to us..kenapa all at the same time..all about the same thing..it's all about disappointment..haiz..i just wanna get over this.. as soon as i could..n wanna get things back to normal.....................

WEDDING

2004-10-23T13:02:00.000+08:00

hi.. adu tadi baru liat website bgs bgt dr eyik.. ada temennya itu baru umur 22, cewe siy..uda mau nikah..uuu pinter yah..!! hehe belom lulus Bachelor jg lagieh..ebat2.. mm tp cowonya uda 27 siy.. jadi gpp lah.. hehe..
promosi ah, niy websitenya: http://catureva.glucosio.com/ adu.. keren dhe sitenya.. potonya buagusss buangett...huhhu kynya impian smua cewe yah klo nikahnya tu keren, decent bagus trus romantis.. hehe..^^ hehe cowonya jg lucu kaya org korea2 dunk2 lucu..hehe
yah eniwei, blom kepikiran untuk pingin nikah siy.. dolo siy pengen bgt..hhehe pas lg bosen2nya en masalah2 lg numpuk huhuh (>.<')
oh ya, barusan eyik kaci liat banyak website2 yg bikin lemes..gelo.. nangis darah liatnya.. huhuhu (T.T) gila klo dipikir2 tuh yah aq koq dunk2 bgt yah.. mereka secreative itu gimana caranya?? niy as example tu: www.tado.co.uk aduh lemes udah liat websitenya..
ya ila, aq liat multimed-nya erik aja uda bindun apalg liat ituh??lemes geter2 udahan hhhihihi..
mm aside from all that, skrg at least aq dah bisa plg pagian..mungkin tlg 30an nov apa 1 dec..hehe tp mgkn ambil summer law marketing..ktnya carles yg ngajaar enak?
yah gt dhe.. sekian dan trima kasih.. ternyata The Terminal tuh keren yah critanya..Dha sukaa dheee slurrPP..Tom Hanksnya trus find his own way to survive n get things done..yah itulah idop, apa2 klo usaha yah pasti bisa, pasti ada hasilnya..yeay..!!

my thoughts

2004-10-20T10:24:00.000+08:00

eyy.. mmm papa n mama uda pada balik niy.. mm rumahna sepi.. uuu.. oh ya, tp sayah teh pengen ngmg niy.. mm guah bakal ganti major tuh uda 85% n itu karena aq uda tot of so many things n taking so much considerations in ma life.. well well.. after having that long discussion with ma dad.. uu im so happy that he supports me in every decisions im gonna make.. dia blg kalo km emank mau ad n itu bakal bikin km interested to study yah do it gitu..
oh ya, trus kt temennya dd.. mm da bikin satu quote yg keren yah.. dia blg "klo apa2 itu jgn tergantung ama temen, itu smua keputusan km n its either u succeed or not entar kan tergantung km jg.. km live ga terus2an ama temen.. n temen tu pasti km bisa cari along the way.." yeap thats true.. gua emank major iniy banyak temen..apa2 uda enak..tp klo entar real life gua.. itu cm gua yg struggle itu cm gua yg tau... emank i agree frens play a big role.. but thats u whom determine ur life..
entar jg gua mikir yah.. di ad, itu gua bakal sendiri.. gua bakal ga ada temen, ga ada kelompok yg enak..iyah emank bakal struggle.. tp entar di real life jg kan km gak bisa choose ur own kelompok.. jd yah deal with it now la.. okeizz.. im so happy dhe!! yeay.. brarti Tuhan uda buka jalan satu lg.. Tuhan, tinggal satu decision lg yg I need to make.. *ehmm, winkz2*

2004-10-18T17:44:00.000+08:00

sayah lg nunggu kls econ tech niy..mmm wow lg seneng buanget dhe..uhuhu.. dd da plg..hehe jd ada temen ganjen yO..hehe trus yah kita bisa shoppin2.. yah niwei, Tuhan tuw lg buaeq dhe.. cenang2 .. kmrn kan yah dha punya sunglass teh coplok tangkainya..bener gak siy itu tangkai? auk ah..pokonya gt dhe.. yah trus ari niy ke sportsgirl blg klo tangkainya copot, bisa minta skrupnya lg gak..yah akhirnya diganti baru..yeay!! bae bgt.. uhuhuuh..
trus yah kan..brp ari niy teh saya struggle pisan ama yg namanya finance..gara2 tutornya teh reseee puuooll!! hmph..tp ternyata bantuanNya teh gak telat lohh.. masa gurunya jadi ganti.. pedaal nilei finance gua tu uda ancur bgt.. eh ternyata Dia buka jalan..oooo tenggQQ Tuhann..cup2 muahhh^^ hehehe...

heyHo!!

2004-10-17T18:23:00.000+08:00

HeyLLoow.. hey hey.. skrg dha uda free..hmmm tinggal one more test to go..ciaYow! mm dan test iniy kudu bener2 bagus dhe..jd huhuhu..
yah temen2, skrg dilemma sayah adalah untuk ganti major atau engga yah.. bambang blg siy yah.. klo ragu yah ambil smua unit yg marketing aja dl n jg aq jd bisa plg pagian lowh..iii pinter lowh km bang..hahauhaua.. tp yah mabok yah ambil marketing smuah..pasti presentasi n research tu setambru d dpn mata..yah namanya jg smua ada kurang n lebihnya siy yah..
eniwei niwei, ngantuk niy ari niy.. yah anotha thought that has been goin around n round ma mind is hmm...yah yg close2 pasti tau lah..hehe pili2 gimandang yah?? mm to be or not to be..thou art.. *wat de??* mm
yah td jg ngmg2 ama papah, gini..sbagai cewe yah, qta pasti takut dhe klo pacaran tu..takut ga cocok ama kel. cowonya..itu one of the biggest obstacles dhe.. yah eniwei, skrg sayah kudu gimana Tuhan?? bukain jalan donkk??? -amen-

MaMa+PaPa daTang!!

2004-10-14T22:45:00.000+08:00

haii.. mama n papa lg mari2 kesini lowh.. dha cenengg dhe..uhuhu..
jdnya apa2 lebi ringan dan enak..oh ya minggu iniy aq da mulei free..freeeeee like a bird..uhmm not yet siy cm ... yah tinggal finance test itu..dan itu kudu bagus..kudu kudu kudu..huhuhu uuu
yah eniwei, td ida ke carousel ..blanja2 dhe hohoho.. puas2.. tp blom ktm sendal putih yg kumau..ada jg yg buaguss bgt tp kegedean.. oh ya btw, td saya mendapat hikmah..klo cowo atau gak pacar teh kaya sendal/ spatu yah.. hmm aneh ya perumpamaannya? yah gini loh.. kan gak smua spatu tu cocok..kdg ada yg kegedean, atau kekecilan.. apa yg uda paasss bgt tp gak terjangkau huhuhu (T.T)
yah jd klo cowo jg gituh.. klopun luarnya bagussss bgtt..tp dlmnya blm tentu cocok.. hehe *bukan dr pengalaman loh..hihihihihi* tp kdg ada yg gak gitu sreg tp koq enak dipake cocok trus harganya jg kejangkau.. yah gitu dhe..saya jg ga tau ngmg apa..pokonya aye doank yg ngerti!! yeayy..
ciayO yah yg besok presentasi ama dha2!!! n lets hope my b comm report bagus..yeay!!

9arBo

2004-10-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

yah teman2..td sayah baru ke garboo..huhuhu pengen cari rok yg diidam2kan..ternyataa..uu sebelnyah tu gak ada yg muatt!! smuanya size 8..gelo..klo dipaksa mah bisa mlorot entah kemana org bediri aja lgsg jatoh koq..adu pedaal td ada bbrp yg luthu2..huuuuuuuuuuu TT.. coba gue ada di HK..adu pasti muat2 dah tu baju..mana pasti seru dhe shoppingnyahh.. makanya org bule jgn gede2 tinggi2 donk badannya...
uuuu aq kan gak bisa shoppingg!!! huhuhu.. ntar mau ke manise gak yah.. hmmm mau ganggu temenku kerja sana gak yah..hehe klo dia bawain apple struddle aq diem dhe..huahuaa.. gelo2..btw, nileiku bener2 ancurrr curr curr..including CB yg uda kudamba2kan sejak dulu kala..lohh koq nileinya begindang..gimandang donk ah??!! matie dhe..moga2 presentasi aq bagus nanti dhe..jd naek buanyakk ooo Tuhann..btw saya bener2 pengen ke Melb niyy jalan2 boOO..!!
-CiaO-

BTin day

2004-10-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

ahh ari niy bt-in bgt dhe.. pagi2 aq dunk2 gak bangun yaaa..MY GOD!!..
kelas jem 10 eh bangun jem 10 mana tadinya kudu presentation lg..untung pas tlp jeje ternyata gak usa present..uhuhu..tengkiU Tuhannn..
trus yah kan service mbl.. trus ngegambar advertisement buat CB hehe punyaku siy gagal..untung ada eyik bantuin ..hehe oya aq pengen bubble tea niy..huhuhu trus lim ada apple struddle..jd pingin huhuhu..
oh ya btw, saya jatoh lg ari niy..uh bt lg dhe..lututnya bdarah..dunk2 aja dhe.. mayan teler niy ari niy..kmrn niy bubuknya pagie mulu..yah eniwei buat atin..i hope entar kan aq ada selang 2 minggu dr abis exam sampe ntar mau ganti major yah..i hope i can go melb n spend long long long holz with ya babiehh..huhuu trus adu aku bener2 gak ngerti econ technya..matie bener2 matie ya..uda mana nilei jelek pisan lg..pucing ahh..

my weEkEnD

2004-10-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

mmm weekend ni waa kusut jg ya.. merana di curtin, trus abis gt ke PRS lagie dhe..ama halim..adu dunk2nya..gak dpt apa2 yO..
uda abis brp tu.. ehh tp gak dpt2 jg...huhuhu malang dhe kita..trus disana tu kita maen2 rides..yeay..pusing ya..sampe cape sekalie..
akhirnya pulang bener2 ga dpt apa2..trus eh rumahnya lim tu kbanjiran..haha gara2 toiletnya teh dibuka kerannya ehh ternyata jadi banjir..ya ditinggal 2 jem gitu lowh.. hihihihihihi..kaciannn yaaa..^^
yah akhirnya..jdnya ngepel dolo dhe hehe..en jg akhirnya jem 1 kita maem di billy lee's hehehe.. trus koq aq mamamnya buanyak bgt yah gak kenyang2 hihueheue..jadi mayu..
oh...trus sebtunya halim tu ke PRS lg..curang tp aqnya oik dhe..yah tp dia dpt banyak bgt bonekanya!!! curanggggg..untung akhirnya aq dibagii..hehehe maacih loh ya..
o iya, btw.. aq jd binun of so many things dhe.. tp gpp.. yg penting dikit2 harus aq clear-in n hmm to someone out there..ciayo yah assgmentnya.. !! me really no offense to ya.. coz u mean alot koq..=D hehe sengaja ku taro warna iniy biar gak gt kebaca hauhauha..
ohya btw, joko blg blog iniy koq ga ada comment gt seh..ya emank abis tujuanku bikin blog teh biar bisa nulis2 aja yg aq alamin..bukan buat org2 ntuk komen hehe.. coz what im writing here is about my life..bukan ky thought of d day etc etc gt.. hehe jadi maklum yah..^^
tp org2 yg tau blog ini mah bole bgt baca..soalnya kan hehe iniy emank blog gunanya buat dipublish hehe.. yah bgitulah akhir2 niy.. aq mo mandi doeloe ah n ngerjain cbku.. n maacih buat Tuhan ..hehe hope U still bless me for what i've done.. huhuh..

baru ditabok2 ama yg d atas

2004-10-09T11:07:00.000+08:00

hai..hmm.. ternyata idup tu lebi dr sesuatu yg uda aku bayangkan.. hehe..lg puitis ah.. well.. lg digojlok Babeh kayanyah..
smua yg kupikirin tu gak berjalan lancar..esp my studies dhe.. and more unexpected things are happenin in ma life.. n everything seems to be unsure, uncertain..oo I really really badly need a confirmation Lord..
iyah..ngaku klo slama iniy lg bt ama yg di atas..lg sebel.. lg gak konek.. mm ada bbrp reasons siy.. lalu koq gak ngerasa lg disayang ama yg diatas..rasane klo liat anak2 oik yg laen tu lg suenengg bgt.. lg disayang ..lg di comfort zone.. koq aq engga.. koq aq mala struggle siy??
ternyata .. hmm slama niy guanya ajah yg buandel.. gak dkt ama Babenya.. gak ngmg, gak komuikasi..pokonya lg ancur cur cur la..
huhuhu.. Tuhan maap..(T.T) skrg sampe smuanya uda happened..guanya baru sadar.. baru ngeh klo lg ditest.. tp untungnya.. smua tegoran Dia tu gak terlambat yah.. aqnya blm jatoh..blm tergeletak..smua masi bisa diperbaiki..-amen-
yah ampun Tuhan..ternyata dha tu dunk2 banget yah.. buanyaakkkkk sekalee hal2 kecil sampe gede yg gak kutaro di Dia.. smuanya kupegang sendiri.. trus dr kesaksian2 hidup org koq kynya Tuhan koq gak kerja siy? ya ngehnya baru skrg..
ya pokonya skrg dha mau try to depend on GOD again..mau dkt lg.. kan ktnya smuanya beres klo dikasi ke Babeh kan yah.. uhuhuh maacih ya Tuhaan yaa..uu tayank2 Tuhann.. ^^

-pucing2-

2004-10-06T18:07:00.000+08:00

halo..wah minggu iniy bener2 mabok yah..kynya everythin bener2 out of control dhe.. gimana niy finance assgment n econ tech..pingin nangis rasae.. huhu.. pucing pisan..
yah eniwei..saking dunk2nya aye keilangan B comm file..huhu..mau nangis darah..n nilei finance koq jadi ngaco gt d blackboard..aih2 seteres bgt dhe..!!
huhu there's alot of things i wanna do rite now..tp koq mualess puoll yah.. gimandang donk? hehe..
sebel lg si bambang blg td ada orientation CIC..si denny jg..kurang ajar ..hmphh.. ternyata orientasinya mg dpn..uh bener2 pengen disuntik matie mereka..
td groupnya otoy, carles ama epy lucu dhe role playnya..huhu i wish dhe bisa segroup ama mrk..terutama epoy!! huhu.. kynya idoepqu bakal indah klo ama mrk..
aduu lg mikir jg..mau ganti major gak??? lalala..sy siy pengen ganti..ah pusing2.. ah lieur ahh..

Perth Royal Show

2004-10-05T13:01:00.000+08:00

hai..kmrn dha ke perth royal show lowhh..hehe senangnyaa.. peginyah ber8..ama si otoy, epy, ndy, carles, siung2, ama robin n anuz..hehe tp untung aq masuknya dpt children cuman $9 boo^^..wkaka..
yah trus kita maen dhe..hehe maen Ranger tu yg gelo mah.. si otoy masi bisa ngerekam lg.. uda pada eneg2 n ngamuk2 lg..hehe terutama si anuz..hehe..lucu pisan ^^
tp cape yoO..betis kaya kodok n tukang beca..abis jalannya jauh..trus kita ga ktm jalan k train stationnya..dunk2 dhe..untung cenya cm be2..epy kan bisa bertahan yg gituan..wah klo engga, bisa nangis darah dhe..>.<>
mm kmrn siy untungnya gak abis banyak yah..lucky2.. kira2 $30an hehe..trus akhirnya qta plg naek train dhe..trus dianter ptoy ke rmh..kecian jd jadinya..capeq banget dah smuanyah..
banyak rekaman n poto2 bodoh lg..hehe..
trus skrg qta smuanya kudu deal with the assgments n tests..huiks2.. begitulah idoep yah..ada senang n susye..hehe =p ciaYou smuanyah!! (^_-)v

2004-10-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

hellow..
ari niy si dd pulang tuh..indahnya idup dia skrg yakk..huhuhu... pasti *plong*..nothing to worry abt dhe..
mmm..oh ya kmrn niy tu ama tata, titin, yeyet n dd..qta ke freo..hmm..trus me so *dunk2*.. cameranya abis batre..huhu..soalnyah d rmh tu tak cek masi full geto betrenya..yah cita2 buat poto sunset gagal total.hehe.. mm trus critanya..critanya doank siy huehue..qta teh pengen ntn sunrise sambil picnic d kingspark..hehe gelo yah dipikir2.. sunset, sunrise..trus yg ntn teh cuman cewe2 ber4..huhu berasa ky janda2 kesepian wakakka..(-.-')
tp akhirnya, karena ada halangan-seperti gak bisa bangun hehe..qta jadinya yum cha doank..hehe trus yah..kmrn malemnya qta ntn MTV Music Award..hehe keren pisan..aduu creative skalie..pingin rasanya kerja disana..jd yg backstage aja..huhu..*in ma dream dhe*..hehe
yah eniwei, my assgment uda tinggal skitar 5 lg la yah..horeee dikit2 dah mulei beres..

my day

2004-09-30T00:30:00.000+08:00

pheww.. finally i got my own blog..hehehe.. lucu jg rasae.. my gratitute goes to ERik n Risty for teachin' n helpin' out with my blog =)
mm.. iseng2 aja siy..soalnya lg week free niy curtin..jd pengen nyobain something new..(>.<') eniwei, ini wk free jg gak free2 bgt siy..
tadi pagi ajah uda kudu ke skola..ktm si Otoy..blj finance..buntutnya siy klo blj ama dia mah ktawa terus..hehe..olahraga muka..huehue..
trus yah ktemu Cha2..mmm thanks to her dhe pokonya..dia uda bisa bikin aq lega bgt^^..mmm trus dia ajak aku ke river cruise..mmm kayanya FUN dhe..themanya "Greek Ethens" gitu dhe..^^ tp dress codenya silver, bronze atau gold..nah kan bindun mau cari dr manah yah..
oh ya, trus malemnya kita itu ke Lesmurdie..hehhe liat 'bintang' siy critanyah..hehe tp sebenernya gak bintang2 bgt..hehe soalnya dikiitt bintangnyah.. hehe..trus jg qta ke Conca's hehe.. yah itung2 'supper' yahh..hohoho..akhirnya kesampean jg cita2nya Eyik ntuk ngajak anak2 rumah jalan2..(^-^)v
rasanyah minggu2 ini penuh sekalie buat aq..ckckckc.. itu ada 8 things i need to finish up n i dunnoe...im thinking of changing my major..tp aduu..gak mau pisah ama temen2..uda enak bgt temennya..ada Evy, Otoy, Ndy, Anuz, CarLes..huiks2.. tp gimana donk klo struggle terus ama financenya..tatut jg siy..hmmm.. any suggestions? well..well.. i still have some time to think bout this..
kepengen dhe rasanya ketemu mama+papah..dah lama pisan kynya gak ada yg rewel, yg nasehatin..trus pengen ada yg tekker jg..klo plg tu mama dah masak..trus cucian uda rapih..ada papa lg ngapain..adu kangen pisan dhee..(T.T)
yah maklum baru nulis2 blog jadi rada bawel hehe..enaknya ada blog tu klo lg nunggu group mtg di skola kan bisa nge-update..hehe
btw, akhir d minggu iniy, Oik ada acara ktnya pengen ke Araluen yah..hore liat bunga hehe *kam se u pisan yak* trus mm let's see la mau stay over atau nda..tp yah.. ada MTV Music Award niy..aduu jadi dilemma..huiks2..ada Jessica BodoO performm..huhu pingin liat..

why..

2004-09-14T18:48:00.000+08:00

We do almost everything that lovers do,
and that's why it's hard just to be friends with you.
Everytime your heart is broken by the fool,
I want you to know that it hurts me too.
It's hard to wipe your tears away.
Knowing that you should be with me.
Now tell me why..
Chorus:
Why, why are we still friends,
when everything says we should be more than we are?
and tell me why,
everytime I find someone that I like,
we always end up just being friends.
I would hate for you to find somebody new,
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you.
But am I a fool girl not to see,
if I'm always scared I'll lose you anyway.
Somehow somewhere I've got to choose.
No matter if it's win or lose.
Now tell me why..
(Chorus)
I don't wanna be like your brother,
I don't wanna be your best friend.
I only wanna be your lover.
When will this end?
If i told you that I want to be in your life,
then you could be the woman in mine.
Now tell me
(Chorus x2)

hai

2004-09-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

hai..
saya baru buat blogspot niy.. iseng aja..